The twins have now started school full time and I am sitting here in total silence (apart from the washing machine noise that is) wondering where the last 4 and half years have gone. Its come round so fast.
Being a twin mum is hard and what you don't realise is how busy, noisy and hectic your life will be, and how fast it will go. As a twin mum you spend a lot of your time not only feeling guilty, but wishing the days away and praying for the next phase to come because its so hard. Then with a blink of an eye 4 years passes and you are dropping them off to school.
Looking back I wish I didn't get so stressed and wish time away because i'll never get that time back again. I realise how truly lucky and blessed I am to have them.
''Double trouble''or ''well done, that must be hard'' people would say. ''Rather you than me'' people would joke. But I count myself extremely lucky to have twins, precious firsts that I get to experience twice, double the joy, double the fun, double the laughter, double the love and double the sleep deprivation and stress (but we wont dwell on that one!) all at once.
What I have realised is being a mum is hard at times, full of ups and downs and its perfectly ok to find it hard, so I will stop feeling guilty now and enjoy every single moment with my precious twins.